It’s Not the Path But The Way You Walk It – Part II

In my last post, I wrote about the fear-based idea that a person can ever be off their path. We can never be living someone else’s dream or walking anyone else’s path. The only one in your body is you. The only one in your mind is you—even if the seeds that have flowered there originally belonged to someone else, a result of your conditioning. And if you find yourself living the life your mother or father wanted for you instead of the one you want for yourself, you’re still on your path, and in a moment of grace, you may experience a shift in perception that allows you to start honoring your truth instead of someone else’s. You won’t be on a different path. You’ll still be on yourpath, the only one you can walk. Maybe it’ll feel like a different path because you will have made a vibrational pivot. You will have had an “ah-ha!” But even here, the journey has only just begun.

While there’s no way you can be off your path, there is a way you can be walking it in a bit of a haze and daze. The fog is there as a symbol of misdirected attention. But this can play an essential role, if we recognize it for what it is and don’t turn it into some sinister belief such as “I’m off my path.” Maybe we’ve “lost the plot” but certainly not the path.

Though it is a lie, even the belief that you can be off your path still serves a purpose on your path. It, too, is trying to redirect your attention. Maybe you keep bumping into the same patterns, the same old karma. Maybe you feel lost or without purpose. It isn’t that you are objectively lost or ever could be. It’s relative to a narrow perspective and a dimension in which we are often tempted to believe crazy things about the way we feel, like that we could be off our path or purpose, and give our power away to those who promise to put us right. This might sound confusing or difficult to understand so let’s try it from another angle.

Think of your path as multidimensional, like a drawing that’s layered on top with other drawings on tracing paper. We can shift our attention to include all layers or only some. Sometimes, it is useful to narrow in on one layer, but other times, we need the “whole picture” for a complete perspective. Sometimes, we might be so focused on a particular layer that the other layers seem to have vanished from existence. They are still there, of course, and part of the bigger picture. We just need to back up and flip some pages to see them again.

You see, it is only the whole picture that reveals the truth, you are divine. It is this bigger picture that has the power to open up the path, allowing you to explore your personal gifts, talents, and experiences unique to you. By widening our perspective, we begin to strengthen our connection to our higher aspects and our path begins to reveal more layers. It starts to feel more like the one we always thought we’d be walking. The haze and daze begins to clear. But what is it that helps us shift perspective? What needs to happen for us to put all the layers of the picture together?

And here’s the truly mysterious and fascinating thing as well as the one thing most people don’t want to hear. You know all that stuff on your path that makes you feel like you’re not on your path? The doubt. The confusion. The dissatisfaction. Those very things we resist, deny, avoid, run from, and stuff down? They are essential parts to the bigger picture. They are not expendable. They are absolutely necessary. Without the lines they draw, the bigger picture would never be complete.

This is why dealing with your shadow is so critical! When we resist the shadow work we must do, we remain stuck in what some might call the low-vibration manifestation of our life’s path. We see the parts and surface layers only, but not how they connect, and when we try to see the bigger picture, we can’t because we don’t want to include the page we’re on. We haven’t been taught to think multidimensionally and inclusively. We’ve been conditioned to think black or white and maybe gray. The idea of “layers of reality” boggles the mind, but it is the nature of consciousness.

It’s the very things that we revile that allow us to access the eagle-eyed view. Spiritual bypass isn’t life-saving; it’s plastic surgery. Lots of people try it. They want the feel-good perfect life and the absence-of-suffering fantasy. But it’s fake and phony, like an overpowering, artificial fragrance that burns the nostrils and slowly destroys our sense of smell. And it keeps us from fully realizing the enlightened potential of our path.

You’re always on path. You’re always on purpose, whether you like it or not. And whether or not you walk the highest possible manifestation of that path and purpose is a matter of the way you walk and not the path itself. It’s directly commensurate with the amount of the bigger picture you are willing and able to see (and if you don’t see as much as you wish you did, that too is your perfect path). It is directly proportionate to the depth to which you are willing to dive.

The keys? Acceptance. Forgiveness. Humility.

So stop worrying about whether or not you’re on your path and use that energy to simply love the things that make you imperfect and human. Embrace the qualities that embarrass you, that you hate about yourself, and that make you feel ashamed. They are the very things standing in your way, but not in the way you always thought. They are the stuff that will propel you on your path and elevate it to the bigger picture. They are the very qualities that can help you unlock your true gifts.

That’s right! Your divinity is hiding in the shadows!

It’s Not the Path But The Way You Walk It

I peruse a lot of social media groups that cater to what I guess I’d call “a spiritual mindset.” I’m often shocked to see the kind of ideas out there that one would think “being spiritual” would lead us away from. On closer inspection, one begins to see that the beliefs we had when we weren’t necessarily spiritually awakened simply start to wear a fancier dress.

For example, what may have once been depression based in disconnection might now become anguish over being “left behind.” And the very feelings that brought us to the spiritual path, say our dissatisfaction with life or the recognition of the emptiness of the material world, those very same feelings may begin to feed on the fear of never feeling “better” or “whole.”

There’s also a commonly held fear of being “on the wrong path,” a fear that is often corroborated by those hustling their programs to “discover your path” or “live your purpose.” And while some of those programs may have value, that they come from the assumption that you might not know your path or that you might be living “off purpose” makes them false friends from the start.

Think back to an earlier time in our collective consciousness when we still actually believed that if we didn’t get that new shampoo, someone else’s hair would be silkier than ours. We don’t fall for that so much anymore. We know the toxic crap in one bottle is pretty much equally cancer-causing to the toxic crap in the more expensive bottle. The point is, there is no difference to this kind of belief versus the spiritual idea of being on a particular path. Our pre-spiritual conditioning follows us into spirituality. And we fall for it again and again.

Look. It’s simple. You can’t not be on your path. Whatever it looks like, wherever you are, however you feel…you’re on your path. You’re on it. You’re living it. Even if you’re resisting your life with every ounce of your being, you’re still on your path—the only one available to you. There’s no other choice. Even if choices appear, even as you come to forks in the road, no matter which fork you choose, even if you choose going backwards, you are still on your path. Even if something you wanted more than anything else in the world doesn’t come to you, if you missed the chance, if you lost the contest, you, my dear, are still on your path.

Just walk!

Everybody’s been seeking relief from feeling shitty thinking that spiritual people don’t feel shitty. That too is a huge lie. And guess what? Those shitty feelings you feel ARE YOUR PATH! You’re just not using them correctly, probably because you’re so obsessed with them meaning that you’re not “on path.” They are an indication of what you aren’t seeing. They are an indication of what you are misinterpreting. They are an indication of the lies you have yet to root out.

It’s bizarre, isn’t it? It’s also part of the mysterious game of life. The very belief that you could be off path is still not enough to throw you off of it. But it sure can distract you for a while and make you feel all kinds of worse. And then, because you feel ever shitty, you’re certain you are somehow lacking, mistaken, and lost. Well, guess what? You kind of are, but only kinda.

This crazy idea that we can be “off purpose” or “off path” is a spiritual lie. It’s one of the biggest pieces of bogus being passed around right now. It causes all sorts of anguish, guilt, self-doubt, and needling feelings of dissatisfaction with life. We get ideas like, “if only I was” someone else, more like her, less like him, doing that instead, certified in this, living over there, fill in your blank. And it completely distracts us from the here and now. It blinds us to what is real.

Relax! You’re not going to miss the bus to enlightenment. You’re not going to screw up. You’re not falling behind. And here’s why. You’ve already chosen. If you’re even bothering to read this, you’ve made your choice. You’re up. There’s no going back to sleep, and the work you have to do is right here in front of your face, in your body, and behind thy own eyes.

Just walk. Or better yet, dance!

The Wounded Yogini Part III: Having Healed

This summer was a real challenge for me. I had a pinched nerve in my neck which created a constant radiating pain into my left finger. For over a month, I couldn’t even sit at my computer; I had to stand. And I couldn’t type with that finger at all. Sometimes, I would get an electro-shock down my arm as well. It was almost impossible to sleep at night. I soon learned that I have cervical arthritis and stenosis. I was told I needed surgery (though I had no intention of having any, and for awhile, I wondered if my yoga practice would ever be the same.

The good news is that is will never be the same. Why is that good news? Because what I learned about my body and myself during this “test” has taught me invaluable lessons I was unlikely to learn any other way. It’s now five months from the date of my initial injury, and while I still technically have arthritis and stenosis, I have zero pain and am able to do everything I could do before the inury. (There are, however, some things I choose not to do.)

But what I wanted to write about here is how I healed from what could have been a career-stopping injury. I’ll start by saying that I believe in the body’s capacity to heal itself. Given the right conditions, we mend. There was no way I was going to consider something as drastic as surgery when I’d only been in pain for such a tiny span of my life. Besides, I was well aware that spinal surgeries often do more harm than good. Let the doctors say what they will; I turned inside to know what was best for me, and I knew that was waiting things out.

If we drive ourselves crazy with fear, we perpetuate the problem. If we believe oursevles to be broken or even fragile, we scare oursevles into hypervigiliance. If we remain unwilling to look at what caused the problem or unwilling to change that, again, we only make the duration of the problem longer. Yes, I had to look at some things…some habits of mind and soreness of heart…unresolved pain that was simply expressing itself through my neck.

I also accredit my recovery to the Energization practices of Parmahansa Yogananda. This is a set of simple but profound exercises created by Yogananda to keep the body strong and healthy, among other benefits.  While I couldn’t do every single exercise while in pain and had to modify several of them during my healing process, I know certain exercises helped to stregthen my neck and back and realign my spine.

I also behaved and stayed away from things that would have exacerbated the problem. I had to stop eating inflammatory foods. I had to adjust how I slept. And I had to alter my work-life. This took some arresting of the ego, especially as I continued to teach classes and often couldn’t demonstrate or do myself what I was asking of my students. But in that way, I think it made me far more attentive to and curious about the process of my students.

Finally, I was patient while never doubting (yes, there were moments, but then I’d remind myself) that I would be well again. Healing takes time. It requires self-care. It takes a certain amount of faith. And it takes grace. Fortunately, yoga cultivates self-care, patience, faith, and grace. Today, I’m feeling better than ever and constantly learning to improve my relationship with my own body as well as my understanding of yoga.

Yoga Beyond the Fluff: The Power of Prayer Hands

Sometimes, the most simple things in yoga never get explained or are explained incompletely by those who poorly understand them. A familiar mudra or hand pose you’ve probably done a hundred times (especially if you grew up in a religious household) in yoga classes is “prayer pose”, or anjali mudra (prana mudra in kundalini yoga). It is traditionally known worldwide as a gesture of turning inward or of expressing goodwill and peace.

But yoga is not a religion; it’s a science. Do you know the scientific significance of prayer hands? There are several facets of this special mudra worth understanding.

First let’s consider the meanings. A mudra is a “seal” and “anjali” could be translated as “an honoring”. By forming our hands this way, we assume an attitude of reverence. It’s considered a daily greeting gesture of respect in Eastern traditions. You are most likely familiar with “Namaste” which literally means, “I salute you,” but is often translated to mean, “The light in me honors the light in you.” Used in the traditional way, it is a greeting and not a parting. However, it is often seen used as a closing in yoga classes. Perhaps the intention is the most important aspect of its meaning.

Now on to the science. The hands and fingers are filled with sensitive nerve receptors. These nerves are intelligent enough to help you know when something is hot, cold, soft, prickly, etc. and they communicate that information to the brain’s cerebral cortex.

Now, as you probably know, your brain has two halves: the right brain is our creative and intuitive hemisphere while the left is our analytic and logical side. When we bring our hands together, the right being controlled by the left brain and the left by the right, we are in essence, integrating brain function, bringing balance between left and right. Dominant brain halves are thus neutralized bringing improved concentration and focus.

But wait. There’s more. The right side of the body represents the sun and masculine energy (pingala) while the left side represents the feminine and moon (ida). When we bring the hands together in prayer pose, we are balancing these polar energies as well, creating a neutral space in the body’s electromagnetic field.

To perform Anjali Mudra:

  1. Start seated in easy pose, or if uncomfortable on the floor, sit in a chair or stand in mountain pose.
  2. Bring your palms together in front of the heart, thumbs touching the sternum.
  3. Seal the outer edges of your palms and fingertips. In some traditions, leaving a small gap between the palms is recommended while in others, the entire surface of the hands and fingers touch. Experiment to find what feels right for you. (Sometimes, I let the fingers cross slightly).
  4. Release unnecessary tension through the arms. If you like, apply a gentle pressure through the hands to feel them coming together. Notice the balance of tension from left going right, and right moving left. Now relax.
  5. Close your eyes and lift your awareness upward toward the point slightly above and between the eyes. Remain aware of any sensations or phenomenon.
  6. Breath relaxed but deep breaths. Pray if you want. Remain for a minute or more.
  7. To come out, bow the head with reverence and release.

I want to briefly mention the thumbs and the significance of pressing them into the breastbone. This activates a reflex point of the vagus nerve, which is one of the longest nerves in the body traveling from the head, ears, through the neck, linking our heart, lungs and abdomen.

The vagus nerve is associated with both our ability to rest, relax and regenerate and with our often overused habits of shutting down, running away, and disconnecting when we sense a threat. The vagus nerve helps to regulate our breathing, the body’s anti-inflammatory response, and heartrate. It also affects our memory and ability to tap into our “gut” sense. Research has shown that stimulation of the ventral vagal nerve, along the front body, activates these feelings of safety and calm, so crucial to yoga practice. So, when we press into the sternum with our thumbs, we are activating the ventral vagal nerve and its positive aspects.

So maybe why we perform Anjali Mudra is beginning to make a lot more sense to you. But in addition to the linguistic meanings and science behind Anjali, there is of course, the spiritual implication best described by Krishnamacharya, well-known yoga teacher and scholar (1880-1989), who wrote:


This gesture signifies the potential for an intention to progress to the greatest spiritual awakening. When done properly the palms are not flat against each other; the knuckles at the base of the fingers are bent a little, creating space between the palms and fingers of the two hands resembling a flower yet to open, symbolizing the opening of our hearts.

 

In summary, Anjali mudra aligns us with the right attitude to center ourselves and pray. It inspires our posture upward, and it also brings calm to the emotional body and mind, balance to the brain, and opens the heart. Furthermore, it signifies our spiritual aspiration and prepares us to receive spiritual awakening. So next time you find yourself in yoga class placing your hands together in prayer, may you have an enriched experience by recalling some of what’s behind it.

 

Some Changes Coming – INtuitive Yoga Lab

In my last two posts, I wrote about how a recent injury has made me more aware of my essential approach to yoga as well as how my own practice is having to change as a wounded yogini.

In light of my ponderings, I’m going to be slowly introducing a new class style called INtuitive Yoga Lab. This is going to incorporate the 4 essentials I wrote about in my last post:

  • Slow way way down. Then slow down some more.
  • Resistance is the opportunity.
  • Consider parts to the whole.
  • Question everything.

The goal of INutitive Yoga Lab is to make it easier for people to honor these principles by:

  1. Making yoga class accessible to various abilities at once
  2. Creating lots of space and time (and props!) within class for explorations
  3. Facilitating the discovery of a personalized movement form for each individual
  4. Helping students to further develop their inner authority and body-honoring intuition.

It may take some time for me to fully develop and refine this way of doing things, and it may take some time for students to get used to this level of self-empowerment in a yoga class, but I believe this approach is well-overdue (I mean this in general and in terms of mainstream yoga; of course, there are those who do and have been taking this or a similar approach for many years) and greatly needed.

In INtuitive Yoga Lab, there will be certain foundational movements taught in conjunction with traditional yoga postures. But overarching everything, I wil encourage an individualized, intuitive, and inquisitive movement practice. Some of the elements that will be introduced and cultivated include both traditional and non-traditional yoga:

  • Pranayama
  • Mind/Body Energy Flow
  • Concentration
  • Self-healing
  • Somatic pandiculation
  • Developmental and natural movement
  • Proprio and Interoceptive Training
  • Traditional Asana
  • Meditation
  • Voicework & Sound
  • Restorative Yoga

Indeed many of these aspects are not unfamiliar to my students already, especially those who attended my Absolute Beginners workshop. However, the way I have been delivering them is in for a change. A lab is a scientific environment in which one conducts experiments. Sometimes, important discoveries are made. Other times, things flop. On ocassion, one waits and waits for something to happen. It’s all part of life in the lab. INtuitive Yoga Lab is about giving you and your body temple safety, time and space to experiment, explore and discover your body and its interconnection to mind and spirit.

 

The Wounded Yogini Part II: Yogic Essentials

In my last post, I wrote about how a recent injury and subsequent discovery of health issues has inspired me to develop a clearer picture of my approach of yoga and how I want to facilitate it for others Today, I’d like to attempt to clarify what are for me, the most important aspects of a healthy yoga practice, particularly in relation to asana (or postures).

A Bit of Background

I was originally drawn to Iyengar yoga in my late 20’s. It was a good yoga for my 20-year-old body and helped me deal with middle back pain. I later discovered kundalini yoga in my late 30’s. It was the perfect yoga for that period in my life, too, taking me right into my 50’s. I attribute the long health of my back, despite its “issues” to kundalini practices. But when I finally took teacher training, it was in a somatic, intuitive style of yoga, definitely the fringe.

That training reintroduced me to aspects of my dance life pre-20’s. I loved incorportating those more creative elements so much that I got curious about the application of other forms of movement in my yoga practice as well, like developmental movement and martial arts. I believe we can learn more from variety, maybe because we are variety. While there are certainly great gifts in focusing well on one thing, when it comes to the body, the more variety, the more integrated we become, and the more integrated we are, the better able we are to respond to life.

So, I’m certainly neither a purist nor even a traditionalist when it comes to asana, to the chagrin of some and the delight of others.

The Point of Practice

So if we don’t have to practice only yoga poses or even every yoga pose to be a yogi, what’s the point of even having a physical movement practice?  The original point of asana was preparation for meditation. It was meant to relax the body and release tension so that deeper states of meditation would be possible. I actually do find this an essential part of practice but in addition to the ultimate goal of deeper states of meditation, asana provides other benefits such as:

  • nervous system resilience
  • the undoing and freeing of restriction
  • more connected and coordinated movement
  • improved and supportive breath
  • strength and “response” ability with ease

So then, how do we access those benefits? Following are what I consider to be 4 of the most important elements to my approach to asana:

Dielle’s Yogic Essentials

Slow way way down. Then slow down some more.

We’ve got to have time to feel every tiny articulation and connection through a movement. As experienced yogis, if we’re speeding through from one pose to the next, we aren’t likely to catch any of that. Rather, we’re reproducing stale postures from muscle memory. It’s not that that’s “wrong”, but habit and conditioning needs to be broken through now and again. Change is an inevitable part of life, and just as our bodies change day to day, so should our practice. Slowing down gives that practice juice and life and the chance to experience something totally new and unexpected. Every yoga session is best approached with beginner’s mind. Absolute beginners especially need to know that the journey is far more important than some end result. If the approach doesn’t feel right, the landing won’t either! Yes, take a run-of-the-mill beginners class, and you often see students trying to go from 0 to 60, so to speak, without moving through 2 – 59. They can’t breathe, they are tense, and their likely to hurt themselves. We have to train ourselves to go slow enough to recognize the body’s signals. Furthermore, we need a window of opportunity in front of the pain that sets in only after we hurt ourselves. If we do something without thought or automatically, sure, it may come quite easily. But we can come to regret it rather quickly.

Resistance is the opportunity.

When we come up against resistance, the  body is delivering a very clear and simple message. And no, it isn’t the message that resistance is an opportunity to push through and past it. “No pain, no gain” is a sado/masochistic mantra. Rather, resistance is your cue to “be” and “breathe”. I’ve been in classes where I’ve witnessed other students gasping for or producing labored breath in more challening poses. Nothing was said about it though they were clearly uncomfortable and efforting. The breath should always be the first clue that something isn’t going well and that the body is being pushed too far. In essence, we’ve stopped doing yoga. When we hit those places when the body says, “Stop!”, when we’ve gone as far as we can go–really even before that point–this has to be the place where we obey and honor the body. Our work is right there. If that means we’re not “doing it right”, so be it. If it means we look like amoebas instead of pristine yogis, so be it. If class goes on without us, so be it. I know it can be super challenging to just close yourself off in your own little world and repeat something over and over when that isn’t what the rest of the room is doing; it can be even more awkward when the teacher draws attention to it. But it’s not dishonoring the teacher or the other students when you take care of yourself. Rather, you’re demonstrating intergrity and inner authority; that’s yoga. It takes deep humilty to be honest in yoga class.

Parts to the Whole

I recently took a class, otherwise totally enjoyable, in which I was cued to lock my front knee. I ignored the cue. The instructor informed me how helpful it would be if I could, and when I wouldn’t, he assumed I had a bad knee and was modifying for that. I could live with his assumption…because my knees aren’t bad….because I don’t lock them! Our joints aren’t meant to be locked, bone grinding against bone, straining the ligaments and other connective tissues. They are meant to have room to respond to life’s unexpected challenges. I already know all too well from my recent discoveries how overstressing the joints results in osteoarthritis. My neck is well into the domino process of degeneration. I intend to save what’s left! This relates to an important aspect of movement: the relationship of the parts to the whole. We’re not machines with easily replaceable parts. We are whole organisms connected head to foot in numerous ways. That’s why surgery doesn’t always help but often leads to even more problems. It’s also why certain alignment cues can do us more harm than good. What affects one part affects the whole. When we don’t keep this in our awareness, we’re more likely to injure ourselves.

Question everything.

Realize that every yoga teacher teaches a combination of two things: what they have been taught and what they have discovered. In so much as they teach what they have been taught, there is a lot of room for error, misinterpretation, and the perpetuation of myths. A good example is the use of “Namaste” at the end of yoga classes, which is akin to saying, “Hello” instead of “Goodbye” when you hang up the phone. None of us are free from those little inaccuracies going back through the ages. I’ve learned things that turned out to be incorrect…whether scientifically- or merely personally-speaking. In so much as teachers teach what they have discovered, while it still may or may not apply to anyone else, at least there’s a very good chance for a deeper understanding and more effective application. The danger in any class is placing too much authority with the teacher. We’re trained all our young lives into adulthood to abdicate to authority. But perhaps the most critical issue to anyone’s yoga practice is remembering that the body, so unique in build, alignment, and expression, is the only authority. Therefore, our job as yogis is to develop our body-mind intuition and obey what is tells us.

That in itself is a life-long practice and a lesson best learned early on to avoid long-term physical issues later.

Stay safe yogis!

Words for the Soft (and Hard) Hearted

When you picture your own heart or that of someone else, what do you envision? Do you see the typical valentine heart with two symmetrical bumps in a shade of red or pink? Maybe you picture a more biological heart like a bulbous fist? Maybe you see one of those hard resin models used in anatomy classes.

I came across an amazing video the other day opened my heart imaginations to new realms. It was posted on the website of Gil Hedley, who is a Rolfer and creator of Integral Anatmony. If you can stand the science of dissection, there are actually several interesting videos available. While my initial reaction is always a gag reflex, fascination soon takes over. The video that changed my life was called “Beautiful Fluid Human Heart”. In it, Hedley palpates a human heart to show that it is not a rigid structure, but more akin to a soft little bean bag. We all know the heart is a very strong muscle, and when it is living and engorged with blood, pumping away, then yes, it is a firm, tensile organ, but with no life left in it, it is a truly tender thing.

I actually cried as I watched the video because it totally shot my perception of the heart to pieces and in so many ways. You see, my mother suffered congestive heart failure, and I’ve often wondered if I would endure the same fate. I always had this idea in my head of a guarded heart, one struggling to push on. Throughout my life, my head has been filled with notions of “a hardened heart”, “broken” hearts and closed-off hearts afraid to love. I even adopted spiritual practices to “open my heart” and clear the heart chakra because I was told, and believed, that there was something wrong with mine. I practiced the work, but in my mind, there was always this association of having to change the state of my heart and overcome its failings. I think what hit me most when I watched the video was that it is a physical reality that our hearts are soft little sacs. It’s the physical truth…before any work, spiritual or otherwise, be done.

With this newfound appreciation of my heart’s tenderness, I have a different relationship with not only my own heart, but that of others. This idea of a hard heart…it simply isn’t the truth. Underneath it all, we are all soft-hearted by our very nature. Compassion and Universal Love are our birthright. We simply need to remove all the mistaken impressions that keep us from this realization.

And if the heart only becomes tensile with life in it, then that tension is part of life. It too is natural. Constriction and softening are two sides of that same force required to give life. One is not better than the other. They work together. When there is only one and not the other, the physical heart cannot live on.

In June of 2018, I discovered the contemplative work of The Gene Keys by Richard Rudd. If you are familar with that work, then you likely already see the connection this insight has the potential to give. This video has blessed me with a profound understanding of not only Gene Key 25 (Constriction/Acceptance/Universal Love) as described above, but it has also helped me deepen my relationship to the 29th (Half-heartedness/Commitment/Devotion). I realized that half-heartedness was living in fear of the natural contraction/expansion dance of life. To live with a full heart is to accept both and let the veil of duality drop. The commitment is to all of life…a full life…and both states of a living heart.

The Wounded Yogini

You may be familiar with the term “wounded healer”. The idea is that one has to go through his or her own healing journey in order to be able to help someone else. For the last month, I’ve been a wounded yogini after a fairly innocuous warm-up left me with an odd feeling in my left upper quadrant with radiating, tingly pain down my arm into my fingers.

The warm-up was nothing that “should” have injured me. However, due to pre-existing conditions, it was enough to get my attention. And really, it’s a good thing, because if I hadn’t of been made aware of the state of my neck, which I’ll get to in a moment, I could have done even more serious damage.

I took a trip to the doctor, something I really dislike. My generalist is also a chiropractor, and while in ordinary circumstances, that would have been helpful, in my case, it probably wasn’t. He adjusted me and successfully corrected the numbness in my last two digits, but then the problem moved to my index finger, which is another nerve entirely, and has been there ever since.

The diagnosis has been somewhat unexpectedly complex. After the requisite x-rays and an MRI, it was discovered that I have several issues (and probably should not have been given an adjustment at all!): reverse curve; at least one herniated disk contributing to my current thoracic outlet syndrome, which is the pain down the arm into my finger; cervical stenosis or a narrowing of the space around the spinal cord; and osteoarthritis. OH MY!

Now, as a person who loves to move, this isn’t terribly exciting news, but as a former costume character dancing in costumes that exerted incredible weights on the head, it’s not entirely a surprise either! Nor is it the end of the world. Yes, I have to make some changes to my personal practice and teaching methods, some for the time-being and others longer term.

The good news is, that while I couldn’t even type with my left index finger two weeks ago, now I can. So there’s definitely improvement to the acute issue. I’m also fortunate enough not to need any pain medication (despite the lunch sack of prescriptions my doctor attempted to give me). Gentle stretching, herbal remedies, kineseotaping, “scientific healing affirmations” as taught by Paramhansa Yogananda, and essential oils have so far been enough, and for that I am incredibly grateful.

In regards to my yoga practice, three things come to mind:

  1. yoga is so much more than the asanas, some of which I will never be able to do again…and that’s okay
  2. this experience is helping me to redefine and clarify “my yoga” and how I want to share it
  3. I’m now better equipped to help other people with similar issues to do what they can without exacerbating a condition

In this post, I want to talk solely about the first point and leave the others for another time.

It’s interesting. In learning about my conditions, I have come across a lot of writings by other yoga teachers or people who wanted to be yoga teachers describing injuries that either shut them down or forced them to change their approach to yoga. Those that loved yoga for its purely physical aspects definitely have a harder time coping with injury. I consider myself blessed to know that yoga is not just about asanas or postures. Yoga is about right lifestyle and developing resilience. It’s about the breath, concentration, meditation, absorption, and ultimately, liberation. Fortunately, the only aspect of my yoga that will need to adapt is the asana aspect. And considering my style of yoga was already very somatically inclined, and more about the intuitive, interoception than the pose, perhaps it won’t have to change all that much.

Given my diagnosis, I know for at least the time being that I shouldn’t be jumping up and down, nor should I perform twists towards the side of the injury. Away is fine. Nor can I lie supine without neck support. For now, I also need to stay away from poses that put undo pressure into my arm or shoulder such as downdog and plank. While backbends would likely be helpful for my herniated disk, the arthritis and stenosis would preclude me from doing any, at least in the fashion that traditional yoga teaches. Certainly, I won’t want to bear any body weight on my head or neck, as in plough pose (a favorite) or headstand (which I never did anyway!), and I need to be mindful with arms overhead. Forward bends are a go, though. Woohoo!

Here also is where I am grateful that my movement practice has never been limited to yoga. Certain energization exercises (as taught by Paramhansa Yogananda) and somatic exercises are still good as are some developmental movement explorations. I can also indulge in restorative poses, nerve glides, chi gong, tensegrity, and pranayama (of course!).

Whatever I do do, I just have to practice what I always preach: work slowly, let the body lead, and honor your limitations. Going through this is making me a master of pose modifications and variations, which leads more into my third point above about being a better teacher. Though I just realized, I hate that word, ‘teacher’. I want to be more of a facilitator to movement exploration.

So there it is. That’s where things currently stand for this wounded yogini. Stay tuned for more posts about my personal yoga theory and upcoming changes to my classes this Fall.

 

The Path of Kriya Yoga

Since January of this year, I have been taking Raja Yoga courses with Ananda.org in preparation to receive the yogic practice of Kriya later this year. Kriya itself simply means “technique” and refers to the actions one takes on the path of Raja Yoga. Raja Yoga pertains to the highest goal of yoga…self-realization. It is inclusive of all forms of yoga: absorption through meditation, bhakti or devotion, right action (including asana), and wisdom attainment through reflection and contemplation.
So on July 4th, a day that marks liberty in my homeland, I will be vowing discipleship to this beautiful yogic lineage and Paramahansa Yogananda, the one who brought Kriya yoga to the West. He’s no longer in physical body but very much alive in the beauty and refinement of his teachings and in his ability to deeply penetrate hearts and souls.
 
Discipleship? Will You Be Shaving Your Head? Moving to a Convent?
Taking discipleship vows is a commitment and is my way of affirming that I desire to follow God’s will and not my personal egoic will. It means that I am willing to open my heart to God and dissolve the self in that love. It means that I am committed to freeing myself from my attachments and the delusions of this world…however long it takes. It means I am asking for help. This lineage, specifically Yogananda, will be my trusted guide for as long as it may take. It doesn’t require head-shaving, Himalayan caves, tattoos, or passing out flowers at airports (though that could be fun)!
 
So You Worship This Yogananda Now?
Yogananda is not the object of my devotion, but a reminder of it. The devotion is to the Truth. All the glory is God’s.
 
Don’t You Want to Steer Your Own Destiny?
In the way the question implies, not really. I’ve been there. I’ve done that. Dielle, who hates to be told what to do and what to think and who has spent lifetimes seeking happiness outside herself is ready now to align herself with something greater. Right from the beginning of my experiences with Ananda, I knew I had finally connected to a lineage of Masters that truly had the potential to lead me home. I’m not giving up anything…anything that I won’t lose someday anyway. I am gaining the real and eternal.
 
I want to be clear because I know there is a a lot of confusion out there about what a guru is and isn’t. The mantra “be your own guru” is a popular one, one I’ve chanted myself plenty of times, and that is indeed the aspiration. But just as a surgeon should learn from someone with experience before applying what he’s studied in books, the surest way to advance on the spiritual path of self-realization is to align with someone who has achieved it. One could attempt to make this journey without a guru, but how many lifetimes would it take? I prefer to walk in the footsteps of successful others.
I also want to explain that this isn’t some kind of savior complex. I am not redeemed by Yogananda. I am redeemed through my own energy, thoughts, and actions. Neither does this mean I cannot work with or benefit from other teachers or paths. It is simply a commitment to one set of practices for my personal practice. It is an agreement of trust. Part of my dharma in this life has been exploring many paths from many lands; now I find that everything coalesces harmoniously into this lineage.
 
To Share or Not to Share
This is a really important juncture in my life and one I debated whether to announce for many reasons. Will there be way too many misunderstanding or critisicms? Will I lose clients who fear I might start trying to get them to drink the cool-aid? Will people now expect me to be some perfected representation when I am all too human with my own shadows to conquer? I have a duty to myself to be transparent. And I sincerely want to declare the deeply personal impact this yogic lineage has had on me and my life and then prove it through how I live. That will take effort, discipline, practice and time. That will take yoga! All I can say is, I’ve known nothing so sweet as the energetic transmissions of Yogananda, and I’ve been blessed with some incredibly sweet teachers and experiences in my life.
 
So Are You All Religious Now?
To be clear, Kriya Yoga is not a religion. It’s really a practice, but the teachings do make reference to words that some might find difficult. I do! I still find myself triggered from time to time when a word or phrase reminds me of Catholic mass! Yogananda, in bringing Yoga to the West, did his utmost to make it accessible to the Christian faith. Of course, it isn’t really about the words. It’s about Truth, and words will always fall short. Even that word, God, is one easily adulterated by misunderstanding and/or misinterpretation. Infinite Spirit, Cosmic Heart, Source of All, Divine Mother & Father, Universal Intelligence… it’s all the same thing. How can one name the nameless? Albeit practical, the naming only creates the illusion of division among people and the stories we tell about the word keep us from seeing who and what we truly are.
 
I haven’t “joined a cult’, nor will I be doing any door-to-door conversions or anything even remotely that silly. But it will of course influence the way that I teach and certainly the type of energy I transmit to my family, friends, and yoga students. But I haven’t forgotten that there are many paths back to our True Nature, of course, and as long as each fulfills the person taking it, making him or her happier and more loving, that is reason alone to respect it.
 
Now the real work begins. Inward and Upward!

On God and Guru: Cleaning Our Symbols to Access Their Gifts

In my books, The Unknown Mother and Your True Voice, there are three chapters dealing specifically with the power of our words. In those chapters, what I refer to as the 3rd Gate (Letters), 4th Gate (Words), and 5th Gate (Storytelling) of Sound, I shared many practices about empowering our words, reclaiming definitions, and creating meanings that resonate with and empower us. 

There are no two words quite as sticky with an equal potential to transform our lives as God and Guru.

On God

God is a very ancient English word that summons up images of an old man with a beard doling out judgment for good and bad behavior. Many people declare without hesitation, “I don’t believe in God”. And why should they, if their idea of God is as small as an aged man floating in the clouds or even something so small as to represent only certain people.

But I have to laugh when people say they don’t believe in God. Just take a good, hard look at what obsesses you. You may very well find your God there. And just like God is the masterful creator of the Universe, so too are your thoughts about God…or Guru…the filters of your perceptions.

God is, in a way, whatever one focuses upon. If your thoughts revolve around money, money is your God. It is either benevolent or punishing, grace-filled or wrathful. You either love your God or loathe your God, but the power it has is the power you’ve given it. And by your focus, so you design your experience of life.

If your thoughts revolve around health, then health becomes your God. If you suffer an illness, God may seem cruel and unjust. When your health is good, God seems loving and forgiving. Every belief you hold about the expansive topic of health is a part of your God and reality, and there your power is either put to good use or trapped, depending upon your focus.

On Guru

For Western minds, the concept of guru isn’t quite as old as God, but there’s an equal amount of misunderstanding surrounding this term. For some even among my friends, a guru is nothing more than a narcissistic sociopath feeding on the vulnerable. For others, a guru is an infallible being worthy of absolute and unquestioning devotion. Both of these go so far beyond the actual meaning of the word.

These two concepts, God and Guru, store our energy and the power of our belief within them, as do all words. It is because they are so very charged that we owe it to ourselves to work with them to clean them up.

Save yourself the baby when you toss the bathwater. If you object to organized religion, have your beef with that, not the word “God” and man’s adulteration of what s/he represents. If you object to “guru worship” and those that blindly follow fallible beings or those who victimize fragile minds, have your beef with that, not with the word “guru” itself.

If we do otherwise, we are likely to automatically discount, ignore, or even completely fail to see what is right in front of us when it could be to our benefit.

Both & Neither

Neither God nor Guru are any of these things the minds concocts. God and Guru have much less to do with being human and everything to do with what is beyond our understanding. These two terms can point us to a much bigger truth. But terms will be terms, and definitions, generally agreed upon, will be necessary for effective communication. Problem is, humans don’t really communicate from generally agreed upon definitions. Instead, we argue from highly emotional and egoic connotations. God becomes that thing we grew up with that was always judging us or making us fearful of our mistakes and missteps. Guru remains nothing more than that cult-like character in a exposing documentary who victimized followers.

We need to purify both symbols, God and Guru, in order to realize the power within them for ourselves and the limitless grace either of them has the potential to bring into our lives when we do. God can simply be “divine power”. Guru can simply be “teacher”. Remove from these words the adulterations and divisions that arise from religions and other belief structures and you clear a path towards the experience of exhaltation.

In Sanskrit, Gu represents “darkness” and “ru” means “that which dispels”. So a guru dispels ignorance and illusion. Keeping it that simple, who wouldn’t want to find a truthworthy guru to follow? Guru is not the dirty word it has become in pop culture.

Do you really want to carry around a concept tainted by your wounds, traumas, imaginings, resentments and prejudices? Or would you rather utilize something in its purest, pristine form that gives you access to something beyond the confines of human minds?

As For Me…

I relate quite well to the concept of guru, having been a school teacher long before I ever became a yoga teacher. I don’t follow any one particular guru but I do not hesitate to take inspiration and wisdom from anyone when it is given, whether they bear the label guru or not. I don’t really care how they are living or have lived. If it dispels my own darkness, it serves. Frankly, I rely on the gifts that these sages leave for us. I am my own guru, yes; I blindly follow no one and seek my own experience, as we all should. But I am not quite so arrogant as to think I don’t need the experience and grace of those who have mastered what I have not.

As for God, I don’t know what God is. But I know it is a force with which I have an enduring and benevolent relationship. It wasn’t always that way for me. I had to do the work of deconditioning my mind of the symbol first. And I am so glad I was able, because that transformed symbol is now my entry point into states of deep bliss, penetrating ecstasy, and true faith.

Cleanse these two terms for yourself as a gift to yourself. It is not only liberating, it is life-changing.

Imagination: Rules & Tools for Tough Times

I was talking with my sister yesterday with whom I share many a philosophical conversation. We were talking about those times in life when things really are difficult, when the only thing we can really do is withdraw to the realm of our dreams or imagination as a means of survival. When our situation is unbearably painful and the reality unchangeable, our capacity to escape with our minds might be our greatest means of surviving another day.

Sadly we live in a time when not everyone has been able to nurture and cultivate the capacity to imagine. Our schools are stale and standardized. We are taught that dreams are cheap and the imagination the realm of fools. People spend the majority of their days being fed by media instead of cultivating their own inner worlds and ideas. We’ve forgotten the importance of the imagination. We’ve done worse than relegate it to the world of little children; we have even created a world which steals it from them! No wonder so many adults lack originality and the capacity to problem-solve.

“True imagination is not fanciful daydreaming; it is fire from heaven.” ~Ernest Holmes

Gladly, our imagination is never truly lost to us. Like any unused muscle, it may atrophy, but like any muscle, it can also be developed through the proper activities if the motivation is there. Reclaiming one’s imagination is beyond the scope of this post, but it is possible. If you’ve managed to retain or even nurture yours, then know you have a very important tool at your disposal.

The inability to imagine is akin to a life-sentence in prison. It may not be a physical reality, but the prison of the mind and spirit is a more widespread challenge, and it is equally difficult to the physical experience. Just as a person in a 3D prison must fight for his inner sense of freedom and hope, so too must those plaugued by self-doubt, insecurity, and fear. Just as a person in physical prison faces a certain “choicelessness” that is made concrete by bars and wires, it is not all that different for those on the outside unable to change their situations…trapped in work or relationship or health crises or whatever, unable to imagine a better world for themselves.

No one wants to merely survive, although, for many of the less fortunate, even this would seem miraculous. But how does one move beyond survival and actually learn to thrive? This is where our capacity to dream enters the picture.

We have to do what we can to keep the faith by doing things that we enjoy as much as possible. And beyond that, we have to nurture our imaginations. Escapism isn’t just “checking out”. It has an important function…as long as we remember not to be in it 100% of the time or to do it in ways that destroy our minds and bodies.

“My imagination is a monastery and I am its monk” – John Keats

So, here are some simple rules for tough times:

  • Fight the tempation to destroy yourself.
  • Stay in full control of your mind and spirit. Yes, that means escaping without drugs, alcohol, or other life-stealing substances.
  • Always come back and fully feel again.

And here are your tools for tough times:

  • Take time to imagine it as you would want it, and remember that dreams are limitless.
  • Do something that brings you any amount of joy, no matter how small. Savor it. Breathe it into every cell.
  • Find beauty, in a color, in a cloud, in anything, and if you don’t see it, shut your eyes and imagine it.

If we are to stay sane in an insane world, we have to learn to balance reality with escapsim. We can give oursevles permission to dream, as long as we follow the rules. That’s how we’ll learn to imagine things that we’ve never imagined before and begin to break through and transcend a world gone mad.

Stop the Pain Cycle

It happens. We’re active. We enjoy moving around and getting things done. We might even take pride in all the things we accomplish on a daily basis. Then one day, we get hurt or sick. Maybe we pull or strain something. Maybe we get a diagnosis. We might even break something.

The human body is a strong and resilient organism, but it’s also subject to injury and illness. Even if we take the utmost care of it, we can still have accidents or succumb to disease. That’s life.

When we experience these crises, we can also experience all kinds of associated emotions and fears. What if I don’t heal? What if I can’t play my favorite sport or continue on with work or even move around on my own again. When we go through illness or injure the body, the body tends to guard itself. It is part of the necessary healing process. But when the mind enters the picture and locks us in fear, we start to armour ourselves. We hold back. We over-protect. Or maybe we just don’t want to feel the pain of moving through the entire process of being with what is…so we shut down emotionally instead.

Unfortunately, many people get caught in the pain cycle. They get sick or injured, so they stop moving. Unfortunately, lack of movement creates its own pain. That leads to even less movement leading to even more pain.

What’s a body to do?

It’s critical to understand that movement is life. The more we can move, the better. Even if we can’t move as we once did…or as much as we once did…movement must continue in some way, shape or form in order to break the pain cycle. Too many people make the mistake of forsaking a movement practice due to fatigue, injury or pain.

Of course there are times when we simply need to rest and heal, and until we do, there will be limits. That goes without saying. And yes, there may indeed be things that we simply have to accept we can no longer do, but there is always something we can do to keep everything else well-oiled and optimally functional. It might not be running marathons or power yoga, but it can be a gentle breathing practice or restorative yoga.

Movement is essential in our emotional and mental states as well. They need freedom to flow or we again experience pain or fatigue. We get stuck, frozen in habit. That too makes it harder to recover. Physical movement, even if it’s simply a breath practice, is a great way to process our feelings and shift our mental habits.

Maybe getting past that initial inertia is the hardest part, because once the link is made between how you feel and how much you move, and you begin to recognize and experience the rewards for yourself, you won’t dream of doing yourself the disservice of wallowing in stagnation again. I know it can be scary, but learning to listen to and honor your body is a huge part of any road to true healing. Be encouraged! Get to know that mysterious and magical meatsack you inhabit. Befriend it, just as it is, and let it lead you back to wellness.

 

Yoga Intentions

When I start teaching a yoga class, I usually guide my students to consider their intent for the class. Another way to put it is, “Why are you here?” I throw out a few suggestions…

“Maybe you’re here to feel more relaxed in day to day life, or maybe you simply want to be more mindful of a sore shoulder as we work today.”

I leave my students to then consider and set their own intent. It’s very open-ended and something they keep to themselves. And at the end of class, I ask them to bring it back to mind and think about whether they feel it was met, has shifted, or if it was forgotten after the first few minutes. There’s no good or bad answer. It’s just something to consider.

Our intentions are not always apparent, though. Why are we doing what we’re doing? Are we at class because we paid for a set of classes? Are we there because we needed to get out of the house…or away from someone? Maybe we’re in class but it’s the last place we actually want to be in that moment. Maybe we’re feeling tired or like we might be coming down with something, and are actually wondering whether or not we should have even come. These motivations are actually just as valid as showing up to stay in shape or to cultivate a quiet mind. It is just as important how we’re showing up as it is why.

To get you thinking out of the box, here are some ways you might answer that question for yourself at the start of your own practice:

  • I love how I feel after a workout. I want to feel great!
  • I intend to burn some calories and lose some weight.
  • I want to be gentle with myself tonight. I’ve been pushing too hard.
  • I’m really worried about _____. I just want to forget for an hour.
  • I want to keep my word to myself. I said I’d be here tonight.
  • I really want to honor my edges tonight. I noticed last week I always push beyond them.
  • I feel some pain or weakness in my _____. I need to stay aware of it even if it means backing out of a pose.
  • I want to feel my own strength.
  • Tonight, I’m going to use props just to see how the poses feel different.
  • I’m going to remember to breathe fully throughout the practice tonight.
  • I feel like crap and I want to get through this and go home.
  • I was feeling lonely and wanted to be around people for awhile.
  • I want to run Reiki while I practice.
  • I want to enjoy myself. That’s all.

Maybe now that the pump has been primed, your own creativity is bringing even more ideas to light. The possibilities are endless with awareness and self-honesty. Your statement then becomes your guiding energy as you work.

 

 

Toasted Garlic & Chickpea Soup with Eggs

Today is a gray day. And there’s nothing like warm, comforting food when the sun isn’t shining. Today, I created a very tasty dish inspired by a soup I once had in Peru and an Isreali dish I recently saw served on a foodie show.  It’s quick and easy to make and brings the tastebuds to attention!

Toasted Garlic & Chickpea Soup with Eggs

3 T olive oil
5 cloves of macerated garlic
1 T buillion
1 can of rinsed chickpeas
1 small can of tomato paste
1/4 cup of tomato couli
2 cups of water
A few shakes of Tabasco

Brown the garlic in the olive oil. Add remaining ingredients and simmer.

Prepare eggs over easy and place gingerly on top of the chickpeas. Garnish with a little parsley if on hand.

I had mine for brunch. There was leftover soup, so I served that over pasta the next day.

Learning Yoga Online: Tips for a Great Class

Online yoga videos are a fabulous well-established yoga tool. They are a great way for students to learn new things, gain exposure to various styles, maintain a home practice and have the convenience of access. For teachers, videos are a fun way to share their unique approach, help reinforce learning for clients, and to reach a wider audience.

The only thing missing? Real-time interaction!

Now, with platforms like Zoom, you don’t have to settle for a sterile one-way video experience.  Real-time online connections for yoga students and teachers are a reality now. The virtual studio is helping yoga lovers everywhere to overcome distance and the isolation that home practice can bring. It will never be able to take the place of working with someone in person, but it can fill a void until you can or supplement your current in-person practice.

If you’re unfamiliar with the technology involved, it might seem a little intimidating at first, but the rewards of diving in are worth the initial effort, especially for those with obstacles to attending in-person classes for whatever reason.

Thinking of taking your first ever online yoga class? There are defintely some things to keep in mind to make the experience a great one for both you as a student and for your teacher who wants you to get the most out of each session.

Here are some tips to help ensure everything goes smoothly.

Platform

Whether you are using Skype or Zoom or some other platform to link into your virtual classroom, don’t wait until class time to create your account or sign in. Try it out a day or so before class. Get to know what buttons do what. Run a test with a friend to make sure you can be both seen and heard. Then, on the day of class, sign in a few minutes before class starts. If anything goes wrong, you’ll have a cushion of time in which to troubleshoot the problem or contact the teacher.

Camera

Some cameras are better than others. Integrated webcams are notorious for a lousy picture.  You don’t necessarily need to go out and buy a new one (mine isn’t perfect either!), but do understand that if your teacher sees a blurry or fuzzy image, it will be harder for them to give you appropriate feedback. Camera views are also crucial and discussed further in “Space”.

Lighting

This is probably one of the most important things to put in place. Natural sunlight, if it is available, will give the brightest, clearest view. When that isn’t possible, try to use a light source that is directly in front  of you rather than behind you. Light coming from behind might make you a shadow or even disappear in the shadows. This makes it impossible for your teacher to see what you are doing.

Space

You will need to set up a space that is clear for you to move in but also far enough away from the camera that the teacher will be able to see as much of your body on the mat as possible. If the camera is too close, your teacher may only see a portion of any particular pose (or nothing at all!), and while she will still be able to guide you generally, she may be unable to guide you in a more personalized way. If too far, you may be too tiny on your teacher’s screen, especially if there are several others present in any given class.

This is a snapshot from one of my online classes. Most of my body is within camera view.

 

The other important thing about your space is to make it free of distraction, as much as possible. Put pets in another room. Ask your children or roommates not to disturb you. Turn off TV’s and radios.

Props

Not every yoga teacher uses props, but it is a good idea to have a few things on hand for your own modifications and comfort. If you have yoga blocks and/or a strap, have them close by. But one can always make do with a stack of books, blanket, towel, and a couple of pillows.

The Initial Awkward

If you’ve never used technology in this way before, the first time you find yourself connected to a group of strangers can be disconcerting. Even if it is a private session, it can take a bit of time to settle in. Once you get used to how things look and run and discover the adjustments that you need to make, it gets easier…even exciting and fun.

The other thing to bear in mind is that as amazing and wonderful as technology can be to broaden our world, it is also still subject to all those little things that can go wrong. Connections get dropped, computers crash, power gets cut, sound cards die, batteries drain, and emails get lost or sent to spam. A little patience goes a long way in overcoming these obstacles. Make sure your yoga teacher and/or her provider has policies in place to deal with these snafus.

Seeing and being seen by someone online, in fact, inviting a yoga teacher into your home or office via technology, may seem scary to some of you, but I encourage you to at least give it a try. Once you get used to the newness of it, you’ll come to enjoy all it has to offer… convenience, comfort, and boundless new connections.

Dielle teaches online with OmPractice.com and teaches privately via Zoom. Contact her for more information.

Would you like to sample one of Dielle’s online classes? Here’s a free taster of an hour-long gentle exploratory yoga class:

That Which Frees the Mind: The Power of Mantra

Mantra is a word that means “that which frees the mind”, and Japa (or mantra) yoga is the practice of projecting the mind into a repeated word or phrase imbued with spiritual significance. One of the most universally known is the OM, but there are thousands of mantras ranging from one syllable to complete spiritual text recitation, each with very specific uses and purposes.

Japa yoga may not be as popular in the West as asana (or postural yoga), but is in fact, much older and steeped in tradition that many would say is an intergral part of a complete yogic practice. Those who feel meditation is too difficult may find mantra recitation to be their doorway into quiet mind. They work on multiple levels of being, making them incredibly powerful.

Mantras help to focus the mind, aiding memory and concentration. Because they are vibratory, they can elevate our physical being and surroundings as well, reducing stress and even lowering blood pressure. Scientifically speaking, mantras can activate and stimluate the glands in the upper chest, throat and brain, improving the body’s chemical state. Furthermore, mantras create a palpable spiritual force around the practitioner to dissolve negative traits and increase self-empowerment. Besides the practice feels good and it’s fun!

Practices vary from one tradition to the next, so if one style isn’t suitable, another may feel just right. Some mantras are recited silently to one’s self and others are chanted aloud, either with or without accompanying melody or instrumentation. Some are quite easy to learn and others take some time to integrate and may even integrate mudra (or hand gestures).

If you ever feel at wits’ end with stress, 3 to 11 minutes of a well-chosen mantra can alter your state like nothing else and it’s completely safe. Try it and see for yourself. One of my favorite mantras comes from the Kundalini yoga tradition and contains the syllables RA, MA, DA, SA, SAY, SO and HUNG. Known as the Siri Gaitri Mantra, it is simple to learn and considered a sacred healing meditation that calls upon the energies of the sun, moon, earth, and the Infinite Spirit. You can listen to this impeccably beautiful version here by Mirabai Ceiba and see for yourself.

Starting September 28th, I am offering  an hour long chants and mantras practice at my studio here in Brossac. We’ll be learning technique and mantras from Hindu, Tibetan, and Sikh traditions to raise our vibratory frequency and bring healing to body, mind and spirit. No experience necessary. It’ll be “by donation” and open to speakers of all languages and all qualities of voices, from the tone-deaf to the trained. You’ll love the way you feel. Contact me for more information.

Ginger Carrots in Lime with Peanuts

Well, it took quite a while for summer to arrive in France this year, but it’s finally here. Sometimes, the heat wrecks havoc on my appetite. Eating light and raw is easy and healthy. Here’s my latest raw creation perfect for hot summers.

Ginger Carrots in Lime with Peanuts

Grate carrots into a bowl.
Add a T of coconut cream (or olive oil if you prefer).
Add in a can of rinsed white beans.
Juice 1/2 of a lime and pour over carrots.
Finely chop a small spring onion and add to carrots.
Mince a square inch of ginger and a clove of garlic; add to bowl.
Season with salt and cayenne pepper or a splash of Tabasco.
Sprinkle with a handful of roasted peanuts.

Chow down!

Cookie Dough “N”ice Cream

I confess. I am a dessert addict. After I eat lunch or dinner, I always have to have something sweet to seal the meal…even if it is just a dinner mint. But in my efforts to eat less of the bad stuff (not all of it, mind you; just less!), I was thrilled last year to learn the benefits of a marriage between an ice cream maker and ripe bananas.

For this cool treat, you’ll need to have prepared some Yummy “Raw” Chocolate Chip Dough in advance.

Cookie Dough “N”ice Cream

You will need:

  • an ice cream maker
  • three or four ripe bananas
  • an optional splash of vodka or, as I like to use, Bailey’s Irish Cream (just a splash now!)
  • yummy “raw” chocolate chip dough cut into little pieces

Then all you do is mash up the bananas. Add the alcohol (which provides both a nicer taste and texture…yeah, sure Dielle!) and the cookie dough chunks. Stir it up, put it in the machine, and let it do the rest of the work.

It’s so easy. And it is so much better for you than ice cream.

Yummy “Raw” Chocolate Chip Dough

I have confessed to my sweet tooth before. Because it can become a real problem if I’m not careful, I do everything I can to find satisfying alternatives that are delicious and better for me. Then the problem isn’t so much the need for a sweet treat as it is not eating too much!

I adore chocolate chip cookies, but I really don’t like white sugar and white flour. This recipe helps me satisfy my chocolate chip cookie craving, but it’s dead easy, super fast, and much healthier.

Here’s the recipe for one person. It’s good to do it this way at first to get the hang of the texture you want.

Yummy “Raw” Chocolate Chip Dough

Grab a package of refined almond flour (the kind used in pastry making).
Put some in a bowl (as much as you care to eat) and add a pinch of salt.
Sprinkle in some nice dark chocolate chunks or chips.
Add a t. of vanilla.

Now for the tricky part. You can use the sweetener of your choice: maple syrup, honey, or apple sauce. Put in too much and it’s going to be too wet. Put in too little, and it won’t hold together. You don’t need a lot! And in fact, as you mash it all together, you will find you need less than it appeared at first.

Ideally, you want to be able to shape the dough into little bite-sized balls. If it is too sticky, just add more almond flour. (To be quite honest, I rather like it when it is a bit too dusty and crumbly, but I can’t serve it to anyone else like that!)

Once you have cracked the single serving, you’ll be able to make bigger batches on intuition. But don’t eat them all! Put some aside (even freeze ’em) and you can make some Cookie Dough “N”ice Cream too.

Crunchy Fennel & Chickpea Salad

Nom, nom nom. Nothing like food you can really sink your teeth into to satisfy. My latest colorful creation has plenty for you to chew on! Fresh fennel, crunchy sunflower seeds, snappy cucumber, and crisp carrot blend nicely with the flavors of nutty chickpeas and dill.

What I prepared fed me and hubby. But don’t sweat the amounts. Use your eye and trust your gut. That’s part of the fun.

Crunchy Fennel & Chickpea Salad

Chop a medium carrot
Chop a small cucumber.
Chop a spring onion or two.
Slice and then dice some fresh fennel.
Place the veggies in a mixing bowl and shower with the juice of half a lemon.
Rinse canned chickpeas, dry and add to bowl.
Add dill, salt, and pepper to taste.
Add a nice sprinkling of sunflower seeds.
You can also add a dash of balsamic vinegar.
Finish off with some parmesean cheese.

This recipe is wide open for options. Can’t find fennel? Substitute celery instead. No sunflower seeds on hand? How about some chopped almonds?
No parmesean left after last night’s pasta? Feta will do. You get the idea.

Now get munchin’!

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